I am the Angel’s Share and the Devil’s Cut.

I am a woman who has lived a life surrounded by alcoholics, addicts and people with naracissic personality disorder. More importantly; I am a mother and only parent to an intelligent, witty and energetic 13 year old boy. I am creative, love to work with my hands, intuitive and dynamic. I am career driven; tried my hand in hospitality, continuing care marketing, construction materials sales, home care aide and chosen my career path in construction design and remodeling/reconstruction.

This phase of my life; my 40’s is about recovery, sustainability, independence, discovery and to be honest; selfishness! I decided I needed an outlet; somewhere to create beauty; at the same time release pain. I will share myself in the most intimate way; an “Angel’s Share” (the amount forever lost) and the “Devil’s Cut” (what is absorbed permanently) during my existence with alcoholics & addicts.

My father was an alcoholic; he passed in 2017 of ESLD, liver cancer, cirrhosis and metastasized cancer that spread his brain. My second ex-husband is an alcoholic with ESLD, cirrhosis and colon cancer that has metastasized to his lungs. We were together for eight years and thirty-nine total surgeries; most resulting from conditions caused by his alcoholism and his genetic material. My first ex-husband passed away in 2015 after our divorce in 2012; leaving me an only parent. He had a history of binge drinking, prescription pill absue and had naracisstic personality disorder; living many lies and praying on women.

Although this Blog will be painful in some ways; I am certain that if one person reads this Blog and can totally relate; perhaps they are provided with inspiration and comfort that they are not alone. The pain to relive the events of my life, struggle and in some ways “rebirth” will be worth giving the “Angel” her share and the “Devil” his cut.